You were the easy one to love.
Easy because I knew you were bad.
From the moment I saw you I knew you were the poison fruit
That if I touched you I would burn my fingertips.
I can hear all the warnings still
But I knew from the first moment I saw you.
And that is what made it so easy.
I could reach out,
Get myself burned,
Feel that satisfying bittersweet I craved
And call it an end.
I knew you would shatter my heart
Make everything around me vibrate to the note of your name
But eventually it would end.
And I wouldn’t feel the need to see you everyday.
I wouldn’t feel the need to be near you constantly.
We’d see each other maybe once a year
We’d pick up the cat and mouse game we play
And then when we left it would be over.
I knew exactly how our game would play.
You were easy to love.
But he’s not so easy to love.
He’s got me dipping and diving
Hiding from unexpected hurdles.
I thought he was all good.
The opposite of you, Poison tree.
But I’m learning no one is 100% one thing.
So it’s got me thinking.
Are you really all that bad?
Is there a part of you that knew what was happening?
Did you play along with my game to make it easier?
To make it so I didn’t have to feel so much?
Did you see what I needed and you gave it to me?