Sorry you had to see that.

I’m sorry I went and shattered your picture of me.

I’m sorry I was broken,

Just like everyone else I know.

I’m sorry I broke your heart Mama,

I was never as perfect as you dreamt me.

I’ve been losing fuel for days,

Months,

Years,

And you never saw the cracks in my side.

Never noticed the lopsided way I walked.

Now, I did strap stilts to one foot

In an attempt to look normal.

I learned pretty well how to fake it.

So I’m sorry you had to see that mama,

Sorry you saw when the deep down blues got their hands on me.

I tried to keep you safe….

I just couldn’t keep you safe….