I cry when people leave.
Anyone and everyone.
People I just met, friends I’ve known for yours, favorite characters on tv shows.
And for years I thought if I was good enough I could make them stay.
I thought I could excrete superglue from my fingertips if I opened my heart wide enough.
Like if somehow they understood what they truly meant to me they wouldn’t leave.
But I grew up.
I let that childish idea die
Until you told me to stop missing people.
That I’d wear myself out if I missed at the rate I did.
I looked at my life, with scares and bruises from where people have left.
And then I looked at yours, clean and straight.
And I saw the wild hair and broken grin of my heart and decided I’d rather be me than be you.
I know I can’t keep people near, but I can always keep them in my heart.
I can keep them from being forgotten.
I’d rather feel the pain of missing all of the people who leftthan be left with a silent sterile life.
So my hands have scrapes and scars that I guess could’ve been avoided
But I’d rather have these open hands than your closed fists.
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