Missing You a Little Less

I miss you a little less today.

A little less drag on my normally aerodynamic heart

In the shape of you.

People tell me to erase you.

To push you completely out

Forget the way it was

Because even though you won’t admit it, it was beautiful

You can’t say what we had was average.

It wasn’t normal

It wasn’t just the way things are.

No, we had something more.

And you can’t deny that.

But I need to get over it.

You and I are miles apart

And honestly I’m tired of missing you

So today I decided I’d miss you a little less.

A little less of the toe digs into carpet.

A little less of nibbling on collar bones.

A little less of favorite songs on repeat at 2 in the morning.

A little less conversations that veer from the meaning of life to how good pumpkin cookies are.

A little less of warm hoodies and v neck t shirts.

So I’m not forgetting you.

No, I could never do that.

You’re too much a part of who I am now

To ever completely leave you behind.

But I’m going to miss you less.

Less strings tied across these states.

Less diamonds stretching to fill the space.

Less oxygen from nose to mouth shared between us.

So today I’ll leave the house.

Walk out in my boots and tight blue coat

And I will miss you a little less.

Just a little less.