I Need Falling

I need falling.

Falling through empty space

With snowflakes falling around me

Carving out my image in the darkness.

Letting go

Just so I can feel the cold wind against these cheekbones.

Because that’s my fatal flaw

My one addiction.

The feeling of being out of control.

Of letting go of everything I am

Stopping this brain from its incessant buzzing

And finding something so perfect in its imperfection

That I forget who I am.

I forget where I am.

I forget what I am.

Because its those moments that get me through all the other ones.

So I’m salivating over the thought of a long night drive with some friends.

Drooling over the idea of just talking a walk with someone who I can’t stop smiling around.

Craving at the thought of moments that are hours

And hours that are moments.