Never Had You

I tell lies about you to strangers.

I tell them you were mine.

That for a moment, however brief, you were mine.

That at some point I had you.

Because it’s easier to say that

Than explain the way I adored you.

Would have given you my everything

Fought for you

And I never had you.

You were never mine.

And I understand that and I’m sorry

for tacking your name onto mine for the thousandth time.

But it’s easier to say I had you

Than to explain how I never did.